No Thanks

i guess while i harbor no ill-will towards the guy, and while i'm complacent about madhavi continuing to be close to him, and while i actually think he's a good egg, i continue to be the man who had a terrible experience with him.

some would say, "oh, be big about it and just put it in the past." to those people i would say, "is that healthy?"

it's not like i'm walking about harboring any anger. it's not like i'm making myself unhappy. on the contrary, i'm smart enough to see that a small potluck at his house would be uncomfortable. for me, certainly, and him most likely.

jason makes me uncomfortable, still. although he's been nothing but perfectly polite and friendly to me since we had our mano-a-mano, i'm not eager to spend time with him. i'd be concerned if he didn't feel the same way about me.

i mean, je-zus! what do we have to prove? and to whom?

nothing. to nobody. i think.

so yeah. i think it's fantastic that we're inviting each other to things and wonderful that we're able to hang out casually when the situations arise and smart that i'm not pushing it.

sorry kevin. let's meet for coffee instead. everyone will have more fun (me included) if i'm not there.

onto things and stuff. thank you blog for listening.

we're seeing another wedding site tonight. the marin headlands institute or something like that. i'm anticipating it to be a bit industrial/army, but also to be in what we know is a beautiful location. it's also cheap. cheap might be important.

we've been trying to squeeze our guest list down to 120. that's a reasonable size for a wedding but it's pretty hard to say, "well, let's invite mutt but not jeff." or "do we think these new friends of ours will be 'important' new friends in a year?" sigh. i have a feeling some people will be hurt not to get invited.

but then, i didn't get invited to corey and jenny's wedding and i understand. you really can't invite people who are just "part of the gang" or whom you used to be tight with but who never call anymore.

we only have so much money. although how much specifically we're not yet sure. madhavi's had one very brief discussion with her dad in which he bid low.

due to historical factors involving goat trades and bridal chests (mmm... chests!) the bride's dad is supposed to shell out for the wedding. sucks for him because it looks like a wedding costs around the same amount as a new car.

we don't want an audi. but it would be good to get one with power steering.

maybe my folks will pitch in a bunch, too? these are all conversation that one looks forward to like a colonoscopy.

"hi dad! can i call you dad? can we have twenty grand?"

wedding sites seem to cost from $1,500 up. $3,000 is looking average.

average!

je-zus!

plus the caterer and the band and the invitations and the dress and the rings and clergy and the flowers and the booze and the transportation and and and.

blooey! twenty grand!

thems a lot of clams.

let's not think about that now, though. let's think about the fact that the red sox won again last night, bringing them up three games to zero.

3 to 0 in the world series. which they have not won since 1918. nobody, except the sox themselves *last week* has ever lost after going up three games.

it looks pretty good folks. i mean, if any team could totally choke and blow it now, it's the bosox, but still...

hopes are high. we're playing well and the cardinals are sucking like a hoover with an extra battery. if we don't get rained out, tonight could be the night.

or tomorrow. or the next day. but this year. no more of that "next year" crap.

this year is next year.

i have no plans for halloween.