Poof

we shall see. i started to try and install it myself, but it involves things like perl and brains. my brain is currently in australia, so no luck there.

i'm listening to coldplay now. i am unsure whether i'm embarrassed about that or not. i figured i'd share this fact and find out. wait. wait. no. not embarrassed.

i got the mp3s off katherin's iPod (yes. i am a pirate. arrrggghhh, matey. and i've got [*shhhh*] mix tapes under the bed, too!) and it's growing on me. melancholy pop. i like the sad songs.

oh, blarg (as sean would say). i'm kinda harrumphy tonight. i passed out into a hardcore nap post-work and am unsure if it's the rain and cold or madhavi-withdrawal. she's now in adelaide which means i won't hear from her until our sunday/her monday. that seems like a long time. until i recall i spent nine months without her. and i've got all these letters she left to tide me over.

over sushi tonight, lisa and i discuss how it was this time last year that everything went blooey. we both had our breakups. we decided to move in together. d was all laid up with a broken knee and we were emptying his piss jar for him. and i left amazonia and, wait! holy fuck! i've been blogging for almost a year? a year! wait. fuck! it's been more than a year!

where has it all gone? what was the year like? shouldn't i now commission dick clark to do a retrospective?

i'm not even sure i've been really me this year. i'm scared to go back and see who i've been. what i've said.

groan.

i feel pantsed.

two hours and seventeen minutes until i can open the letter that's labeled "Open this one on March 26"

the one today was worth waiting for. i think i'll read it again.